Its been just a few days over a month here in Guatemala. Work has been more difficult than I imagined and I don't have a lot of time to get out of the immediate neighborhood (much to my dismay).
After a few days of feeling sick, I went out today and explored a little of the historic district by myself, then to another area with some of my coworkers. It was really nice getting to explore a bit, it made me feel capable again which is not something I have been feeling a whole lot of lately.
To get to zone one, I took the public transit and on the way chatted with an older gentleman who has spent most of his life in the US and was waiting on Social Security payments. He had a foul mouth but seemed like an optimist. We got out at the same station, I walked around the corner through some market stalls and realized I had gotten out a few blocks from the stop I wanted, but that it hadn't mattered.
I had two missions. First, I needed some clothes for a 1920s themed party and was headed to the thrift stores (the big chain is called mega paca). The other goal was to check out some of the historic buildings and squares and generally be a tourist(without a camera).
As I wandered throughout the area I realized that due to the decay, even the nice old buildings seem in desperate need of a makeover, and when they are surrounded by buildings in disrepair, it gives off a vibe that the history isn't all that important. That tourism isn't the business of the area, instead there are hundreds, perhaps thousands of small stalls, street vendors, street performers, and shops. Its a downtown market, that happens to include some old churches and a few museums/government offices.
I stumbled into a gallery in the ministry of art and culture, but other than that didn't find much. Many of the buildings were closed. The municipal cathedral was pretty bare and under construction. The main plaza didn't have much to look at. There were about 4 buildings in total with beautiful facades but the surroundings didn't promote their grandeur, rather they subdued it... and it reminded me of other rundown spaces that could use a facelift.
Later in the day I went on a shopping expedition to a mall and shopping area(in zone 11) that we pass every day on the way home from work. I had wanted to check it out because it seemed like a fairly safe area but not too close to the area I end up walking most days.
But as we went inside I realized it was kind of just like all the other malls. We walked around the neighborhood, a mix of suburban commercialism and the sort of rundown garage looking buildings you see every where here. Crumbly walls and razor wire.
This evening we went to zone 4 to celebrate a birthday. It felt weird to be making a spectacle of ourselves in this city where I usually try to subdue my foreignness as much as possible. It felt like we were making ourselves a target but there were 20 of us, so who cares right.
We ended up down this side street with a bunch of low key open street bars. They were classy establishments, but I am sure they keep the neighbors up late.
The whole day made me realize both that I tend to assume the worst about this city (that it is overly dangerous), but also that the city is smaller than it seems. Like I was basically in 5 different zones today and got to see a good portion of them. They seemed walkable and I am sort of happy that I got to go see them, now I want to see more.
Its possible next weekend we will head back to Antigua. I think its important that I try to strike a balance between my side goals (travel, writing, art, spanish, social life, etc) and work.
So far work has been really demanding and not very rewarding. But today was really fun and good for me. So maybe I just need to carve out more of this.